WTF??

I'm sorry but WTF thit you do????
that's just a picture of lorenzo you must now him I think. He's HOT :$ but still uhm it's no use posting things on this blog gus nobody reads this fucking shit so WHY???

and still I think your sexy rick :P

bye bye ojah here some awesome shit I found on the internet may you ever read my blog and a picture of me and mon boyfrien :)

Look what I found on Smee's PC

TUTATUTATUTATUTATUTATUTA

I Don't have any fuckin idea who it is, but it's fun to call her a pervert =]


(no i'm not a hacker Smee's here too)

Fotosjoett

Yes I'm the freak in the painted shirt =] 

and I'm proud of it 

(btw rick is sexy just look at that last picture =])

Appelpop

Eey I went to apple pop yesterday with my best friend ricksel.. you know him already I think. But however was awesome, saw a lot of good bands like: Blof, go back to the zoo, alphabeat, the blackbox revelation and a lot more. Was so cool but got a little tired during the day but still.

only the stupid thing was the train back.. sitting with just to many people in one train and then waiting I thin around 45 minuts before finaly leaving... Is there some idiot how thinks he could start smoking being just 10cm away from me. (that's around 3 inches.) But I have problems breathing so I didn't liked being in that train in the first place.

well gotta go wil give you more about it latter on but just got to much homework..

ly

THESE BOOTS ARE MADE FOR WALKING

You know that walking in the rain can help clearing your mind, and now I know you probably hate rain more then you will ever hate me and you wanna kill me for loving rain, but there are a few reasons. First of all you can cry without any one seeing it. And believe me sometimes it just helps to cry. Don’t know why but after that you most of the time feel less bad then when you hold it all up. The second reason is it just clears your mind. After it you know what you have to do, but you should walk alone or with your dog., because when someone is walking next to you he or she is probably going to talk and then you can’t just think. You can listen to music. But don’t try to focus to match on the music listen something with only instrumental no vocal parts. Or a song that is very calm. Not heavy metal or anything. And uhm.. yeah.. just try it once and try not to mind the fact that you get wet if you hate that then walk outside when it ‘s dry but yeah.. I like walking in the rain.

Sometimes I just wanna be alone but in a house with 6 people it can be quit hard. Or I wanna do something like drawing or something because I haven’t done it in a long time my mother comes with all these little annoying tasks like the dishes or bringing something down or up stairs and stuff like that and whenever you just sitting for a second you have to stand up again and do something else.

Believe me very annoying..

But yeah she loves me I think, and of course I love her to

Because I love every one and I can’t hate someone for a very long time most of the time I forgive them after a while or something or find out they do have a nice part.

LY

KNUFF

because one piece of my heart will always stay loving you

Because,
I will always love you
Because,
I believed in you and I
Because,
I thought we would last forever
Because,
You told me you loved me
Because,
You told me you would never let me go
Because,
You told me we were mend to be
Because,
You took me so far
Because,
I believed all you ever told me
Because,
I know you did to
But,
You changed your mind
But,
You broke my heart
That,
is why I cry every night
That,
is why it hurts so bad
That,
is why I still love you
That,
is why I just can’t get over you

But I don't know what to do with those Tossed Salads and Scrambled Eggs!!

Do you know those moments you really wanna do something but don’t know what it is or what you should do? Or that you don’t know if you wanna do something because you have to chose between the goodness of it and the badness? It’s terrible it always freaks me out. Whenever I have to chose. Believe me I am bad in choosing what to do, especially when I don’t only chose for myself. I rather make the other one decide for both of us. But that is a kind of running away from the truth. But believe me I am bad in taking decisions so once I was walking on a festival with what was back then my first boyfriend and we just didn’t eat dinner, because  we both didn’t wanted to decide what we were going to eat. In the end he gave me a ice cream that was our dinner :P. Well you know I am crazy.  But yeah he dump me just like my second boyfriend did the one I told you about in my first story.. still not yet over him. I am afraid that won’t happen so quickly. So to get over him I went on shopping therapy with my best friend rick. Spend a 140 euro’s on clothes, shoes and a bag. I know that’s bad because that was kind of the money I deserved by working 2 weeks around each almost 17 hours. So not a lot but still all gone in just one day. But oke I will get over it. I hope.

And well it’s still driving me crazy the fact that I am just the worst when it depends on choosing something. I just really can’t. But yes sometimes you have to make them, and sometimes they are easy like, should I take this piece of chocolate or not. Most of the time when I start wondering that the whole chocolate bar is already gone (with no explanation :$) but well.. I still make enough decisions to stay alive. And I use this blog whenever I wanna tell something I can’t say to someone.. but I really wanted although there will always be thinks no one knows and I won’t put on the internet.

Well yeah so.. but in that case I most of the time write them down somewhere still thinking of making a book about my life but then change it a little so no one knows it’s my life. But I am not good in writing story’s tried it a few times but yeah never get further then 1 page and around 800 words so..

Kind of a writer’s block most of the time

Love you all even you :P

Free HUGs for all even for YOU because YOU are special and YOU are a very lovely person although I might not know you..

But really love you all

(but I don’t like you)